I feel something that you don’t see
Who would have thought that AI would also make it onto my blog and that I would be able to jump on the bandwagon just in time? (or I missed that I missed it)
The other day, as I was looking at, analysing and evaluating the results of my latest photo shoot when this thought occurred to me: AI could take better photos than me. etter in sense of: AI could probably create photos that would make people nod in impression and comment with „Wow, that’s really a amazing picture!“. If I handed my photos to these people, my best photo might get an honest but not particularly impressed „Yeah, it looks pretty good.“ But it just wouldn’t leave the impression that the other brilliant AI picture did.
A special feeling called self-efficacy
At that moment, however, I also realised: So what? Because at that very moment, a special and strong feeling strucked me: the feeling of self-efficacy.
The feeling of holding a product in my hands where I know: This picture looks like this because I have made certain decisions. Decisions based on knowledge and gut feeling over the years, and also a large portion of trying things and letting coincidence lay a hand on it. A bundle of decisions.
Starting with the technical equipment (camera, lens, film), to deciding on the motif (subject, framing, use of light) and ending with the settings on the camera to finally capture the subject (aperture, shutter speed, image focus).
While the first two points no longer cause headaches and insecurities, I notice that I’m still quite young when it comes to the camera settings and thereby the photographic paintbrush if you say so. Most of the time it’s trial and error and knowing that I don’t know much. So I’m really super-mega-very happy when the pictures turn out well.
There is so much behind each picture: my thoughts of the moment; what I knew and what not at that time. So many feelings and thoughts that accompany a picture until it is in front of me.
I see something that you don’t see (*)
As an outsider, you don’t see these feelings and thoughts on the product, this one photo. From this one photo, you can’t tell where I was standing two years ago and that I didn’t dare to leave the camera’s automatic mode. From this one photo, you can’t tell that I lost many photos to poor contrast and too little light. From this one photo, you can’t see the whole learning process. You know what I want to tell.
It’s a pity that no one who hasn’t gone the same way can see this way as well and acknowledge it accordingly, but that’s only natural. But what remains for me and for you is this feeling of self-efficacy.
This feeling of being capable is priceless and cannot be replaced by anything.
And importantly, once I feel it, no one actually can take it away from me anymore.
Eventually, it’s not about the AI. It could have been another person taking that other brilliant photo. It’s about me taking photos for self-awareness, for the feeling of knowing and being able to do a bit more today than yesterday. If I want to do more of interpretation, it’s about how I realise that I am and live.
And that, dear people, were my two cents on the subject of AI and my three pennies on the subject of self-efficacy.
Have you ever noticed your self-efficacy and if so, what situations do you think of?
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Disclaimer: This is my description of self-efficacy or a situation where I experienced it – if you want to learn more about it, your trusted search engine will help you. (*) Literal translation. This is a kids‘ game, the english analogue game is apparently „I spy, with my little eye“
Camera + lens: Minolta 9000 AF + Minolta AF 100mm Macro f2.8
Film: Rollei RPX 100
Development + scan: Charlie Engel Lab 2.0
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Da hast du auch sehr schöne Bilder ausgewählt, um das zu illustrieren 😉 Ich ließ mich insbesondere anfangs häufig davon deprimieren, was für Hochglanzbilder die KIs erzeugen. Aber irgendwann fand ich doch, dass es sehr albern ist, dass „AI Artists“ die „prompts“ austauschen müssen, mit denen sie dieses oder jenes gemacht haben, damit sie überhaupt wissen wie man zu einem bestimmten Ergebnis kommt. Und dann ist da noch das trial and error statt der bewussten Entscheidung und Erkenntnissen und der immergleiche Look der AI Art. Das hat mich dann wieder etwas mehr damit versöhnt. Den Begriff Selbstwirksamkeit kannte ich so noch gar nicht 🙂 Aber ich finde es ganz schön den zu kennen
Es freut mich, dass du meine wundervolle Bilderauswahl bemerkt hast 😀 Tatsächlich bin ich nicht tief genug in der Welt der KIs drin, um den Prozess zu verstehen, der dich anfangs deprimiert hat. Aber wenn ich dich richtig verstehe, machen sie auch erst mal trial and error um herauszufinden was wie funktioniert?
Die Frage ist, was man als Künstler:in erschaffen will. Das, was immer wieder gut ankommt, oder seinen eigenen Stil entwickeln?